What was I thinking?

Well, as most of you know, I signed up for NaNoWriMo…

Guess how many words I have? How far I’ve gotten!

I have an amazing grand total of zero words…yes, zero. I’m a third of the way through the month and I’ve got nothing. I guess life took it’s toll, as it always does.

I should have participated in NaBloPoMo. At least that doesn’t have  word minimum.

I’ll still try. If I have the time to sit down and dedicate myself to writing, oh, approximately 17,000, or about 16 pages.(which is what it would take for me to catch up let alone get ahead..)

I don’t give up. But I’m doubting my intelligence in signing up for this.

If I have the chance I just might, sit my sorry ass down for a few hours and ram my way my through the hardest part of all: the beginning.

Really once it’s started, it shouldn’t be too much of an issue. I hope.

(Just to give you an idea this post is just over 180 words..I would have to do it about 94 times just to catch up)

Kicking the Junk

Well I’ve come to the conclusion that my story for NaNoWriMo will be about withdrawal.

I’ve decided on a heroin addiction, as I believe that it probably has one of the most intense, and significant withdrawal purposes.

My main character(yet to be determined if it’s a she or a he….) is experiencing the withdrawal process. The novella will be laid out, not in chapters, but in hours…(the essential composition of it will be based on time…not on “sections”, as is typical of books. (I’m aware of the overdone aspect of time, but I believe that in my project, the time issue is an essential demon.)

I don’t want to give too much away in the general plot, but the protagonist will also be the antagonist…more like the main character will not face another, but more his/her personal demons.
Sure, other characters will make appearances but only in the main character’s dreams/hallucinations/mind.

As, I mentioned above, the entire basis of the book is about heroin withdrawal…and personally, I don’t know much about heroin or withdrawal. Sure, you see that crap in movies, but that’s not enough…
I’ve been doing mad research about heroin usage and withdrawal…I’m by no means a medical expert of any kind, nor have I actually been exposed to heroin usage first hand or anyone who has quit constant usage.

My desk is covered in Wikipedia(my only real lover) articles and medical journals about it…I may even take out a book about it.
I might look like a druggie…but there’s no sense in writing a book if I’m going to do it half-assed. I want to be educated…besides the matter has always intrigued me. I’ve experienced cigarette/”kiddie drugs” withdrawal and I know how irritatingly insufferable that can be, so I can just imagine what a withdrawal from a dependence to heroin can be like.

I only hope that I do a believable job and that I can engross my readers(if I have any)to the extent that they can’t put my novella down.

Here’s to lots of research, kicking myself for picking a topic I know a grand total of fuck-all about, a mad obsession with spell-check, and loads of caffeine. Sixty-nine hours til NNWM-Day.

Like a lightbulb…

So as you know from a previous post, I am participating in NaNoWriMo.

I had been at a loss for what the plot of my book is going to be.  I haven’t had trouble deciding on a plot because I didn’t have ideas…the problem was that I had too many ideas.

I had several ideas in the works for books that I wanted to write…I’ll give you a few tidbits if you are a fellow NaNoWriMo-er and you need some inspiration.

1- The story of my love-life…or lack thereof. My ups, and downs…mostly my downs. The story titled”So, You Have a Stalker…Now What?”

2- The story of a woman who goes through lifes daily struggles only to pray for sleep where she leads a completely different life.

3- The story of a woman who’s been taking care of her parapelegic father for the entire life she’s known…only to discover later that her “caretaker/uncle” is the one who put her father in that state…also that her father was previously in a mob-like association.

4-the story of a person in rehab or experiencing withdrawal from a drug(possibly heroin)

At last I have decided to select the fourth option as I am in macabre state of mind and I believe that the other novels would not be given the proper attention, nor the intensity that I believe they deserve at this point.

Due to some saddening facts in my recent life, you can expect for the story line to be quite…frightening. Many people will see a side of me that they have never seen before.

Welcome to “Smack”. (title possibly to be re-adjusted in the coming while.)

NaNoWriMo

I’m insane. Absolutely insane.

I signed up for NaNoWriMo. For those of you who don’t know what NaNoWriMo is, it’s National Novel Writing Month.
The idea of it is to write at least 50,000 words by the end of the month. It begins November 1 at 12:01 A.M. and it ends November 30 at 11:59 P.M.

Well I intend to try and push through this month and do it. Granted, it’s a small novel, but getting through it is probably the hardest part.
Here’s hoping I have enough time, drive, and caffeine to get through it. I’ll keep you fine people posted.

Now all I need is a general idea, plot, characters, and well…everything. Haha.

Cheers to those pushing through November with me. May your muses be ever present.